I don't think I am confrontational enough.
Uncomfortable situations make me feel, well, uncomfortable. In those cases, I let myself fall back onto old habits or routines that put me into a passive role in a confrontation. Instead of actually saying what I think or making the other person hear my opinion, I back off and agree with whatever they are saying.
While this kind of behavior has definitely occurred less this past year, due to the fact that I speak out more often now, some situations still bring out the old "me". For the first time in several months, a situation the other day made me seethe with rage internally. Instead of standing up for myself, I carried around this rage for the rest of the day until I finally got it out of my system by going to the gym.
This should mainly serve as a reminder to myself: be more confrontational. I have a Post-It with this written on it hanging in your room, it shouldn't be there to just take up space. Get used to the idea that being an asshole is okay, and in the long-run, better for my health.
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